wanted to write in French, but gave up, for friends to know me well, that seems to be without choice

i just want to try my English, u know, after about such a long time, maybe as long as half a year, i really don't where my English is right now. i did all i could to avoid having any contact with English for my major, but things just get worse, my French hasn't been as good as i have expected, BTW my English is always going on to fail me. maybe, all these stupids things are due to my former stupid choice. so who to blame expect myself? sigh...

haven't logged in here for so long a time, there's no new comments. my space has disappeared with me in these several months just like the fallen leaves never attract the travelers again. and i don't want the past to be draged into reality again and again just in order to prove its previous existence, that's much more unnecessary and stupid than anything, isn't it?